Well I feel like I have missed a very important opportunity!  A couple weeks ago I was frequenting a blog that I love & the blogger had put up a link to an adoption agency that had just listed some new "waiting children".  Like a crazy person I quickly clicked on the link & found myself going gaga for a few of the beautiful boys, but falling in love with a little girl named Sophia!  She was so beautiful & so young.  She had a special need that I researched & felt we could definitely handle.  She wasn't even a year old yet & would be under 2 by the time we would have been able to bring her home.  I contacted the agency by e-mail & filled out a pre-application on their website.  I didn't hear anything from them, so I sent them another e-mail.  Nothing still.  Now I could have just called them, but didn't want to push it to much since Aaron hadn't said yes & we still couldn't do anything financially til Feb-March.  I checked the site everyday & she still remained available, so I kept praying.

Last night I realized that I hadn't checked the site all day, so I went to it.  I was so disappointed to see that she had been put "on hold".  It hit me pretty hard & I just started crying.  I am happy that she has someone interested in her & could possibly bring her home a lot sooner than we would have been able to, but something in my heart kept telling me that she was meant to be ours.  I guess I misread & even though I knew we weren't ready to start another adoption just yet...I so wanted her!  I honestly believed she would be there for a little while.  Graysen was on a shared list & our agency was shocked that he was still there since he had both a repaired lip & palate.  With this knowledge, I just assumed Sophie would too. 

So just thought I would use this as an opportunity to put my feelings down & move on.  Yeah right...moving on is probably going to take a little while since I am having those feelings again & ready for Graysen to have a little sister!

Blessings,
Tracey

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